Victim Mentality vs The Power of Choice

I have to confess I haven't watched The Biggest Loser since early last season when they started advertising TBL Shakes. I had a significant ethical issue with a show programed to teach people how to eat well and exercise jumping on the shake diet roller coaster so I had my own little boycott of the show. With that said, last night as I was looking for something to watch whilst doing some ironing I saw TBL Masterclass was on and I was curious as to what it entailed. I have to say, I was impressed! I can really see the long term benefits a class like this could have on your everyday Australian if they wish to win the battle over their weight.

I listened intently as they went through exercises and the cooking class but it wasn't until a contestant from season 3 appeared that I stopped what I was doing and sat down to listen. She said something that I found so inspiring that I felt as if the last two weeks of kinda doing WW have been washed away and my determination renewed. Basically she admitted that she had let her life circumstances define who she had become and you could see so clearly from her eyes in the before photo just how empty she felt when she walked into that house. But there she was, some 2 years later, happy..healthy..full of life. She now owns her life. She now defines who she is! That is the type of person I aspire to be, someone who owns their life!

Alison made a choice whilst in the house that she was not going to let her life control her any longer and I admire her dedication and tenacity to get to where she is today. This of course got me to thinking about the power of choice. I have struggled for the last two weeks to stay on track and reading back through my blog posts I can see a lot of excuses there for why I have done the things I have done. I even went as far as saying I didn't want to make excuses and then kept right on making them. I let myself down and fell back into victim mentality. I let my life control me once again, blaming my problems on work hours and lack of sleep.

The truth of the matter is I made the choice to not track my points, I made the choice to not go to the gym and I made the choice to eat that Red Tulip Easter Bunny. No one made me do it, my boss didn't hold a gun to my head and make me not eat well or not exercise. If I over think anything I seem to find it very easy to come up with excuses as to why not to do things.

I have spent far to much of my life being the self imposed victim. I blamed everyone else and everything else for letting me get to the stage the I am. I sabotaged myself and for the first time i realise that by doing that, I was making the choice to stay fat!

No more excuses, as of today I make the choice to be happy, to be healthy, to eat well and to include exercise in my routine every single day. I make the choice to no longer make excuses, I make the choice to no longer let life define me. I will define my own path and in doing so, I hope to find the real me. She has been hidden for a long time. But i know deep down she is there and she is screaming to be let free.