Stress

Stress is my nemesis, I can handle almost anything else but when life starts to get stressful I find even the very best of my intentions falter.

I have had an absolutely (excuse the language) shiftful week! My house was being painted this week which has meant living in paint fumes for the last 5 days. The turpentine in the gloss makes my chest heavy and as a result I haven't been sleeping well, because I haven't been sleeping well I've been exhausted nearly everyday before it even starts. Then of course to top it all off work is off the charts at the moment, so much to be done and so few people to do it. I've worked the better part of 24 hours in the last 36. I know because of the way this week has played out I haven't stayed on track, I've been eating foods I know I shouldn't because by Thursday I need the sugar hit to stay awake and I haven't made it to the gym once. I am fully expecting a gain this week as I honestly don't believe I deserve a loss. But, I have to find a better way to manage stressful weeks. They aren't going to disappear just because I've decided to try and make my own future better. I have to make time for me, no matter what life throws at me.

It's funny how your mindset changes through this journey. Six months ago I was the queen of excuses. I had an excuse for everything, but today I don't want to make excuses, instead I get frustrated with myself for not doing the things I know I have to do. I am determined to keep to my goal, I just have to find better ways to deal with the unknown factor.

I read Fiona's blog this morning and she had a very interesting post on there about not letting life be a barrier. This is a lesson I need to learn and the sooner I learn it the better this journey is going to be.

Next week is about getting back on the horse, I MUST eat well, I MUST sleep well, I MUST make time for exercise. These three little things are the what will turn my life around, do I really want to spend another day not making time for things that are so powerful?

There is one very positive thing that did happen this week though. My beautiful baby niece Madison was born on February 10th at 7.59pm.

She weighed 3.9kg and was 51cm long. Welcome to the world Maddi xoxo!