Week 6 Weigh In - YAAYY!

A very quick post before I scoot out the door for work.

A 1kg loss for me this week which means i've finally reached (and passed) my 5kg goal as well as hitting just over 5% of my body weight gone...yayyyy! So so happy right now, today is going to be a great day!

Week 6 Wrap Up

I haven't had a chance to write much lately as my internet connection has been all over the place but that would have to be the only bad news I've got.

I have had a fantastic week, since my revelation last week that this battle is all about choices, I've been feeling more confident and more determined then ever.

I am proud of the choices I have made with food this week and with work being so busy I've been able to increase my incidental exercise by at least 50%. My favourite pair of trusted three-quarter denim pants are literally hanging on my hips by a wing and a pray, I would almost say they are too big. Give it a week or two and those babies will never see the light of day again. I think I might have to have a ceremonial bon-fire or something and really make an occasion out of it!

My mum took me shopping today and for the first time in the longest time I actually enjoyed it. We went to Simone Perele at DFO and I had a fitting to figure out what my bra size was. Sounds crazy but I've never been professionally fitted before as I was just too embarrassed at my size but I rather enjoyed the feeling today. That was probably largely helped by the fact that the sales assistant gave me the BEST news. Before starting WW I was wearing a 20E, as of today (just 6 short weeks later) I'm now an 18E BUT already on the second clip. Accordingly to the lovely sales assistant that means I'm already on my way to a 16D. I simply can not believe it! I get to wear pretty underwear instead of something that feels like sandbags!!

After picking myself back up after 2 pretty ordinary weeks (completely my own fault) I'm really looking forward to weigh in tomorrow. I'm soooo close to my 5kg mark only a mere 300grams to go and I'll nail it so keeping my fingers crossed and off to the walk my beautiful lil puppy right now to squeeze in just a bit more exercise.

Dear scales please be kind, I think I earned it this week :)

Week 5 Weigh In

I somehow miraculously lost another 400grams this week. I'm feeling very humbled because I honestly didn't deserve the loss.

So far though week six is looking really positive so as always ..onwards and upwards.

On A Mission

Whilst on the theme of motivation, this is my new favourite workout song, it's already on my Ipod and ready to roll!

Victim Mentality vs The Power of Choice

I have to confess I haven't watched The Biggest Loser since early last season when they started advertising TBL Shakes. I had a significant ethical issue with a show programed to teach people how to eat well and exercise jumping on the shake diet roller coaster so I had my own little boycott of the show. With that said, last night as I was looking for something to watch whilst doing some ironing I saw TBL Masterclass was on and I was curious as to what it entailed. I have to say, I was impressed! I can really see the long term benefits a class like this could have on your everyday Australian if they wish to win the battle over their weight.

I listened intently as they went through exercises and the cooking class but it wasn't until a contestant from season 3 appeared that I stopped what I was doing and sat down to listen. She said something that I found so inspiring that I felt as if the last two weeks of kinda doing WW have been washed away and my determination renewed. Basically she admitted that she had let her life circumstances define who she had become and you could see so clearly from her eyes in the before photo just how empty she felt when she walked into that house. But there she was, some 2 years later, happy..healthy..full of life. She now owns her life. She now defines who she is! That is the type of person I aspire to be, someone who owns their life!

Alison made a choice whilst in the house that she was not going to let her life control her any longer and I admire her dedication and tenacity to get to where she is today. This of course got me to thinking about the power of choice. I have struggled for the last two weeks to stay on track and reading back through my blog posts I can see a lot of excuses there for why I have done the things I have done. I even went as far as saying I didn't want to make excuses and then kept right on making them. I let myself down and fell back into victim mentality. I let my life control me once again, blaming my problems on work hours and lack of sleep.

The truth of the matter is I made the choice to not track my points, I made the choice to not go to the gym and I made the choice to eat that Red Tulip Easter Bunny. No one made me do it, my boss didn't hold a gun to my head and make me not eat well or not exercise. If I over think anything I seem to find it very easy to come up with excuses as to why not to do things.

I have spent far to much of my life being the self imposed victim. I blamed everyone else and everything else for letting me get to the stage the I am. I sabotaged myself and for the first time i realise that by doing that, I was making the choice to stay fat!

No more excuses, as of today I make the choice to be happy, to be healthy, to eat well and to include exercise in my routine every single day. I make the choice to no longer make excuses, I make the choice to no longer let life define me. I will define my own path and in doing so, I hope to find the real me. She has been hidden for a long time. But i know deep down she is there and she is screaming to be let free.

Stress

Stress is my nemesis, I can handle almost anything else but when life starts to get stressful I find even the very best of my intentions falter.

I have had an absolutely (excuse the language) shiftful week! My house was being painted this week which has meant living in paint fumes for the last 5 days. The turpentine in the gloss makes my chest heavy and as a result I haven't been sleeping well, because I haven't been sleeping well I've been exhausted nearly everyday before it even starts. Then of course to top it all off work is off the charts at the moment, so much to be done and so few people to do it. I've worked the better part of 24 hours in the last 36. I know because of the way this week has played out I haven't stayed on track, I've been eating foods I know I shouldn't because by Thursday I need the sugar hit to stay awake and I haven't made it to the gym once. I am fully expecting a gain this week as I honestly don't believe I deserve a loss. But, I have to find a better way to manage stressful weeks. They aren't going to disappear just because I've decided to try and make my own future better. I have to make time for me, no matter what life throws at me.

It's funny how your mindset changes through this journey. Six months ago I was the queen of excuses. I had an excuse for everything, but today I don't want to make excuses, instead I get frustrated with myself for not doing the things I know I have to do. I am determined to keep to my goal, I just have to find better ways to deal with the unknown factor.

I read Fiona's blog this morning and she had a very interesting post on there about not letting life be a barrier. This is a lesson I need to learn and the sooner I learn it the better this journey is going to be.

Next week is about getting back on the horse, I MUST eat well, I MUST sleep well, I MUST make time for exercise. These three little things are the what will turn my life around, do I really want to spend another day not making time for things that are so powerful?

There is one very positive thing that did happen this week though. My beautiful baby niece Madison was born on February 10th at 7.59pm.

She weighed 3.9kg and was 51cm long. Welcome to the world Maddi xoxo!

Week 4 Weigh In

Not entirely unexpected my loss wasn't as great as I would normally hope for this week BUT I knew it was coming and I've decided to look on the bright side. I lost 0.4kg this week which puts me 400 grams closer to goal, that is nearly a whole container of butter! I find physical imagery a great motivator.

I did as I had said I would and have gone back to basics this week, all my meals planned and today felt great so onwards and upwards.

Brutal Honesty

After 3 very successful weeks on the WW plan I've found that the 4th week has been a little lack luster. It's amazing how easily old habits can creep back in when you aren't paying full attention to what you are doing. Having snuck a peek at the scales this morning, this week I've lost 0.2kg so far. Whilst I'm more than happy with it being a loss, its a big dive from the 1kg a week average I had for the first three weeks and I've spent the evening reassessing my week so that I can try and make next week better.

I had a great loss last week and it is probably more than reasonable to expect a lower than average loss this week as it all balances out. However I made myself a promise when I started this blog that I would always be honest with myself on this journey and that means admitting that I haven't had the best week.

Without wanting to make excuses for the choices I've made this week, I think my downfall has been a combination of becoming a little cocky or complacent due to early success and the fact that work has been extremely busy for the last week or so. I have been very fortunate over the last three weeks with my weight loss, it has come off relatively easily and I haven't had to think to much about it. I made wise food choices and started exercising again for the first time in about 10 years.

This week though the wheels have fallen off a little bit. I haven't been eating my allocated points each day, I've often had anywhere between 5 - 7 points left at the end of the day, which I know is a big no no. On top of that we have been run off our feet at work and as I'm an afternoon exerciser, by the time the end of the day has come around, I'm exhausted and have found it far to easy to make excuses not to go to the gym. If I was to be totally honest I would have to admit that I'm still not at the point where I love exercise so I think a combination of being tired and having had a few great losses, subconsciously I decided that I didn't really need to exercise as much. THIS IS A THOUGHT PATTERN THAT HAS TO CHANGE!!!!

If 0.2kg is what my total loss for this week checks in at on Monday when I weigh in, I will be happy with that. It still puts me 200g closer to my goal and equates to a total loss of 4.1kg in 4 weeks. But it's important for my long term success that I nip destructive habits in the butt.

Starting first thing tomorrow morning I'm going back to basics, planning my meals in advance and I absolutely have to make the room for exercise so I'm going to try and switch to exercising of a morning before work. I refuse to fall back into the habits that got me to where I am because I know believe that I deserve better than that!